photo diary #2
while we were trekking across the country i was journaling in my phone all the pitstops and road side attractions. well, my phone got stolen out of my own damn apartment this weekend and now my notes are g o n e and i am p i s s e d.
just as a side note who the fuck comes to a christmas party (of a girl you don’t know mind you) drink loads of free cocktails and be drenched in mucho holiday cheer and then steal the girl’s iphone?? damn people, you’ve got some coal comin for you. anywaaaays…the beginning of our tour was pretty grim. super, super flat, ugly, and repetitive. our first night we set up shop in the back of the uhaul at one of the creepiest campgrounds ever on the shore of lake erie. i don’t know what it was about the place but it made my skin crawl. we got the hell out of there pretty quickly. lake michigan in indiana was next which was soo rad! i’ll show you why in another post ;) oh and let’s be clear, they have all heard the great news in middle america. jesus is lord.
merrrrrry christmas! i’m going to shred the gnar tomorrow. happy weekending.
c r o s s c o u n t r y
photo diary #1
i am freaking overwhelmed by the gazillion photos i took on the cross country adventure mission chris and i underwent in september. i had a trip back east planned for months for my best friend’s wedding in rhode island. on a whim my parents announced that they had a plethera of antique furniture that they didn’t want anymore and offered me the option of an early inheritance. bam! we decided to say fuck it, rented a uhaul, packed it full of treasures, and set out on a completely unplanned journey back to portland. we glamped in the back of the rig in addition to pitching our tent at a few stops along the way. all in all it was pretty awesome. we spent a few days on the cape and got to have a last supper in my parents dining room before their remodel. cape cod is september is magical.
more diaries on thee way …
what the fuck has really been going on?
there is nothing truly unique about why i have fallen off the face of the internet. since the beginning of this year i have been dancing around some big roadblocks in my head. i think i’ve mentioned something about transitions in almost every post since january. can i just say it is time for two thousand and fucking thirteen. i’m ready.
something that i have not really gone into that has affected my state of mind immensely is the fact that i am suffering from a broken heart. i’ve held back with the details and i plan to keep it that way but it’s something that i’ve realized that i have never really experienced to the full extent. it’s insane what love can do to you for the better or for the worse. irreconcilable differences, a no-fault divorce. let me tell you, it is the pits.
we shared many things including two little dachshunds and an accessories company inspired by one of them, bean. my emotional attachment to this project that we built together has made it very difficult to keep it going. sad and painful, straight up. so i have been formulating ideas as to how to do a fresh spin. i have a starting point that i’m excited to get rolling. i want to combine the things that i am most passionate about. so expect to see some changes here with blondegotblues as well ;)
with help i have managed to identify a few of my top values in life : family and independence. last week it dawned on me that for the first time in 6 years there is nothing tying me down or holding me back. i am determined to get back on my feet emotionally, physically, and creatively. time will be my best friend in this journey. i feel like i am slowly but surely gaining my motivation back which has slipped away from me over this past year due to the preoccupation of my heart. i feel a gravitational pull that is reaching out and telling me it is my time to go. fresh starts and new chapters.
i have an amazing circle of support near and far who i cannot thank enough for listening to my broken record again and again. seriously, what would i do without you guys?
i realize that this is a very personal post. everyone is different, i am a sharer and look at sharing where i’m at as part of my healing process.
checking out of this heartbreak hotel, r i g h t n o w.
guess who f i n a l l y got photoshop and illustrator back! thank the lordy, it was driving me bananas not having them on my puter. these photos were taken when i was back home on the cape by my dad :) i’ve broken the rules and worn this outfit a couple times since. simple, simple, simple. that’s what i’ve been striving for lately when it comes to my personal style along with life in general.
dress, XXI ∙ top, the rack ∙ booties, cooperative ∙ scarf, vintage
i have all sorts of things brewing but the next major occurance will be taking place in about 2 weeks. my bestest friend in the whole world is getting married. i’ll be flying back east to be by her side and can’t wait. then i have a cross country plan formulating that involves a uhaul, antiques, and camping to name a few. more on that later…
it’s thirsty thursday, cheers!
good evening my dears. isn’t this city freaking b e a u t i f u l ? warm weather is still on the horizon for september and my hopes are to take full advantage. one of the first weekends i was back in portland we discovered this magical little lake up by mt. hood, lake wahtum. the water was crystal clear and depending on the time of day had a tropical turqouise glow. aside from soaking up all this surrounding beauty i’ve made some more big time decisions. i’ll let you know what kind of ride they take me on. cowabunga!
s a y o n a r a s u m m e r
just typing that phrase makes my eyes well up. this summer has been much different than others for me. it orbited around the month of july where i spend my time on the east coast mainly just worrying about what bikini i was going to wear from day to day. it was amazing and just what i needed, space. this year has been all about transitions for me and for some reason i’ve orchestrated them all to come at once. change is something i’ve been longing for but i’m still not clear to exactly what that entails.
“life is one big road with lots of signs. so when you’re riding through the ruts, don’t complicate your mind. flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. don’t bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. wake up and live.” r.n.m.
time to snap out of the funk and steer this train out of the ruts. follow your heart my friends. happy labor day.
blazer, XXI・cami, the rack・lace shorts, the rack・cooperative booties・vintage satchel
i am obsessed with my knock-off chanel satchel. my dear friend michelle introduced me to one of her favorite vintage shops located in northeast portland. i can’t remember the name of it but man do they have the goods. the best thing about this bag is that i can wear it as a backpack.
i’ve been snatching up various items from my mom’s jewelry box since i’ve been home. she gave me both my grandmother’s wedding bands, a little gold watch, and a gold id bracelet. love the delicacy and simplicity of each score. thx mama :)
my parent’s house in wellfleet is an antiquirian’s dream. the main part of the house was built in 1709. that’s older than the united states! one of my favorite features is the wallpaper in their bedroom. timeless.
i wore this a couple fridays ago. a few friends and i trekked it up to provincetown for a local art show and then to dance our faces off around town. tomorrow night is my last friday on the cape for awhile. going to kick off the weekend in p-town once again.
this is what i’ve been up to :
i knew this month would fly by. it’s almost time to fly back to real life. gotta soak up every second i have left in this magical place i call home. off to lecount’s for the day..
it’s been months since i did a personal outfit post. told ya i’d be back!
my style tends to weigh more on the casual side when i’m at home on the cape. sometimes i get the funniest comments and looks from people. almost like they’ve never seen a girl wear red lipstick. i understand that many are just not into fashion but c’mon i’m not calling you out on your mom jeans and flip-flops.
this is what i wore last week to reggae night at the beachcomber in wellfleet. it was crowded as shit and i had a few too many glasses of sb at mac’s shack beforehand. if you haven’t been to wellfleet, #1, you need to come visit me. and #2 venture to the gems i mentioned above. reggae night returns this thursday night. can’t wait!
here’s what i wore, click for similar digs :
all jewelry / forever 21
it’s already like 90 degrees with 100% humidity. i’m going sailing! enjoy your day kiddos.
things have been h a p p e n i n g. there have been some big time changes in my life these past few months. as i mentioned in my last post i quit my mother f-in job! for now the corporate life path is not for me. i found myself completely uninspired and drained sitting in a grey fuzzy cubicle for the past 2 years. how the f are you supposed to be creative in that confined space??? anywaaaays. i wiped my hands of that and i couldn’t be happier with my decision. in addition to that major turn i’ve decided to go back to grad school in the fall. i’m so excited to have my creative freedom back! so after i quit my job i packaged up my life into a storage unit and hopped on a plane 2 days later. spent the 4th in nyc and have been soaking up the good life at home on the cape ever since. pow!
the months leading up to my departure were pretty tumultuous. i felt like a tornado was swarming above my head. being home and having no agenda for the first time in years couldn’t have proved to be a better remedy to hide for cover. my little dog bean and i have settled in perfectly. i am truly from one of the most beautiful places on earth. it’s hard to imagine leaving.
a minor side note is that i still have not purchased my return flight. i haven’t felt this at peace in a long time and it scares me to think about flying back into the storm. salty oysters, sand in my shoes, the best friends, mom and dad, bean’s perma smile, ocean view drive, lobster tails, the freshest air, june bugs. i’ll take it all. this is where the golden hour originated for me.
eventhough i have all this new found time on my hands i’ve been having a hard time planting myself in front of this screen. slowly but surely i’ll be getting back to my regular posts. until then…live it up.
t r a n s i t i o n ’ s
moods from monday on a tuesday
via miss moss, born to be wild, hawlin, design inspiration
the launch i was referring to friday has been made.
i let the cat out of the bag at work yesterday. i am retiring from corporate america until further notice. one of the best feelings i’ve had in a long time. and today i bought a one way ticket to n y c july 1st. i’ll explain more later.
don’t waste another minute kids.
h i g u y s
my personal time has been cut down to a bare minimum lately due to a handful of occurrences. some have been amazing, others have been challenging. i’m not going to get into the thick of any of it but wanted to drop off some salutations on this friday eve. the past month i’ve spent most of my time catapulting from one side of the country to the other with the exception of dipping down into the desert over memorial day weekend. luckily i have the rest of this month to prepare myself for the next launch. 3 week countdown. for those of you who don’t know what i’m referring to you will soon enough! it’s gonna be a wet, hot, american summer. bombs away!
r a n d o m
via we live young, hawaiian coconut, wolfcub, hawlin, miss moss, oracle fox
i can’t put my finger on one particular mood this monday eve so here’s a splatter of what’s inspiring me this very moment. free spirits, summer treats, poolside babes, airy colors, fire in the sky.
this weekend i plan on making a few of these inspirations realities.
viva las vegas.
last time i checked in i was gearing up for a last minute trip back home to cape cod. when life gets hard i am reminded of how tough it can be to be thousands of miles away. things are a bit upside down at the moment hence the halt in my regular postings.
life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s learning to dance in the rain.
i have no idea what i would do without my truly amazing friends, my mom and dad, and bean.